I have been gathering medical records for second opinions coming up and seeing that we started this journey for baby #2 just about 1 year ago in September. Back then, never in my wildest dreams did I think we'd be back here. Starring down the barrel of another laparoscopy, with 5 blasts transferred, 20K + in the hole. How in the hell did we get here!?!?!
I measuring my life in cycles again. Somehow, I'm back on that hopeless, hope, despair, depression, hope roller coaster again. I thought when C was born, I had paid for my ticket off that ride. Now it's starting to piss me off that I have to do all this again. I hate it, and maybe I'm more resentful this time around.
As I trudge along through the infertility sludge again...my docs finally talked about me having the surgery. So, next week I have a consult with my OB to go over things and hopefully pick a surgery date. I suppose some time after that, we'll reevaluate and see what my RE thinks about moving forward.
I did ask him about doing the Lupron Depot and he said he would only want me to to do 1 shot in conjunction with birth control pills directly prior to the FET - huh? So that leaves 100 more questions I suppose. Would that even be enough to reset my lining? I've never heard of this protocol with BCPs? What in the heck is he thinking?