Friday, August 23, 2013

Check the Box

Mock Transfer Complete! My uterus looks great according to my RE and we can go forward. Now just need to OK from my OB next week.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

What's Been Going on 'Round Here

Our "lazy" summer seems to have turned into any but.  August is almost over and I can't say exactly what we've been doing except that we've been enjoying time as a family and keeping very very busy.  We've had lots of guests and then a few quick weekend trips too. 

It just seems that life with a little one flies by!  When we were cycling, I can remember the feeling that waiting for my period to start, waiting for my protocol, waiting for a doc appointment, waiting on a phone call seemed like eternity. These days, weeks go by in the blink of an eye. 

Gearing up for FET in October has been interesting. I had my last nursing session with the little one on Sunday night. Sad in a way, but there are new things on the horizon so that makes me excited. E just said it's a part of his growing up and I think that made the most sense to me.  We get to experience so many new things with this little love and it's OK to say good-bye to some of the others. 

I am set to have my mock transfer on Friday.  Fingers crossed that my uterus looks normal.  Then the next hurdle will be my pap with my OB next week. I am still nervous he's going to be upset if we tell him we're going to start trying again this soon.  But "trying for a baby" and "having a baby" are two very different things where my body is concerned.  I am both scared and nervous for this appointment but if we delay by 2 months or so, that won't be the end of the world I suppose.  More time to concentrate on our family of three throughout the holiday season I suppose.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Recap of Appointment with RE

Monday we met with our RE about getting ready to cycle again for a try at baby number 2. I can't even explain how surreal it is to be typing those words. I had so many mixed emotions before the appointment but thankfully work kept me busy so the magnitude of what was about to happen didn't really hit me until I started walking the 4 blocks from work to the RE's office that day. I was suddenly so nervous, excited, scared and hopeful all at the same time.

Walking in the doors, I was given a patient information sheet to fill out because it had been "so long" since I had been in. E wasn't there yet and I was so flustered filling out the forms. I am pretty sure I put my address on the "patient name" line and had to cross a few things out. It didn't help when the dippy receptionist who I always despised commented that she was happy to see us back and that things must have worked well the first time, so we're a shoe in for another kiddo. SERIOUSLY!??!?! I almost jumped over the desk and strangled her. Who says that at a fertility clinic!?!? I mean it took us 3.5 years to make it to #1 and #2 could definitely be a whole new struggle. You just never know what lies ahead. Thankfully E walked in about 3 seconds after that and then RE came out the door and over to greet us right away and I immediately felt much better.

We headed back into the consult room and dug right in about how the pregnancy and birth went. He wanted to know the reasons we had a C-section but didn't seem worried about it at all. He said because we have 4 frozens, we have a very good shot of at least getting 1 more child out of that batch. Gosh, I want to believe that with all my heart. All in all, I left feeling really excited and confident but then those feelings scared me. I remember feeling them way back when we decided we'd try to have kids in the first place. Filled with hope and joy that we'd have a happy ending - not knowing that end was so so painful to reach. Anyway, I still left feeling good because I know at the end of the day - no matter what happens with this cycle or the next, I am already a mommy and I have that to comfort me. I can't imagine how coming home to a snugly little guy wouldn't help ease the pain of a failed cycle.

So the plan is to update my blood work, pap and I have to get a mock transfer done. Oh and stop breastfeeding as well which is sad for me. We were nursing just 2 times a day but then we went down to once a day this week and I am having a hard time with it. I know I need to wean completely before we cycle again, but nursing is so wonderful now that we've got a routine. My supply is dwindling though and I think it's just a matter of a few more weeks. This morning, the little one finished a bottle but then turned to me to nurse. It was so adorable, I just let him. I knew he couldn't be that hungry. He had just finished a 4 oz bottle, but I think he was doing it more for comfort. I wanted to snuggle too. Anyway, it will be challenging for both of us but we'll work it out. I think we're looking at doing our FET in October so I'll keep you posted on the happenings.