Baby girl is doing great! Mommy, not so much. I'm healthy, she's healthy and that's all I should care about...and truthfully, it's all I really do.
But then there's life on top of that - E working late ALL THE TIME. Not like 7pm late...like 10pm late. A parental visit gone bad, BH contractions if I walk down the hall to the bathroom, feeling like I'm gaining too much weight, home renovations, 90+ degree weather and a 34th b-day which took a turn for the worse.
I'm OK in the end....just emotionally and physically exhausted. No idea how I'll make it 11 more weeks. I am just trying to put one foot in front of the other these days. 11 more weeks seems like a lot on one hand and then it seems like nothing all at once. This is the last pregnancy for sure sure.. I'll never have this again. I am soo grateful and lucky that we are where we are. But I'm tired too - competing emotions are difficult.
On a happy note, I had a flash yesterday of what it might be like to raise a girl. I was clipping papers to a folder for review and thought...oh I wondering if our little gal will wear clips in her hair? I'll be doing hair every morning before school! Hhaha what a simple but funny thought. I fix C's hair in the morning, but I just wet it with a spray bottle and brush. There will be ponytails, pigtails, clips, bows and braids. I'd better start practicing!