This post is all over the place so apologies!
It's surreal, I have to say. To be this close is so exciting. My emotions are all over the place it seems. I'm excited, hopeful, worried, scared, nervous, elated, exhausted and overjoyed all at once.
My fluid levels have stayed about the same and docs are still not worried. The swelling in my feet seems to be better than last week which is nice and I'm finally home for good.
I am teleworking which is great because I was just so tired of getting dressed every morning for work and dealing with the commute. The last few days at work were pretty stressful getting ready to head out but now I feel like things are under control and I'm ready.
I hope I can handle being a mommy of 2. Today I got sad because I wasn't doing drop offs and pick ups for C at day care. I won't be doing that the majority of the time on maternity leave either. That time is both difficult and cherished. But I'm comforted by the fact that while I'm on maternity leave, I can decide to keep him home with me more and have some extra special days. Having the option is great though I know we'll have him go to day care at least 4 days every week to keep up that continuity, but I can pick him up early or drop off late if we want. I realize that when you have more kids the love grows, but I want to be sure C gets just as much as he was getting before. I know at first, the adjustment to mommy's time will be hard. Thankfully, he's still very much a daddy's boy so E will likely be the main man.
Last OB appointment is Wednesday and then c-sesction is Thursday. Here we go!