Beginning in the middle

So quickly, I'll let you know I'm in the middle of FET #1 right now.  I have my lining check on Friday and my transfer is scheduled for January 11th.  We've got two 5-day blasts frozen from IVF #1 in Novemeber.  The plan is to transfer 1 next week. I'm terrified, hopeless, hopeful, frustrated, exhausted and worried. This infertility rollercoaster I've been on for 2.5 years has screwed with every single aspect of my life and I'm really really ready to get off.  Anyone else?