The new little one in the family has my name! Well, my first name is her middle name but same difference. This was very unexpected and very special. I can't explain why, but the minute I saw her photo, all my feelings toward my sister disappeared.
I am still a little jealous of course, but not like I used to be. What I want most in this world is to be there and hold my new niece. I feel so much love towards her, it's unreal that I could have felt so terrible during the pregnancy. I honestly can't describe this sudden change of heart but it was instantaneous upon seeing her picture and I absolutely cannot wait to hold her. I miss her already and I've never met her - strange, huh?
Maybe it's because I know somehow, some way - and some day, we'll have our own. And that day is getting close, I can just feel it.