I got the message 45 mins ago as I was walking back to work from lunch with a friend. I saw who had called and my legs went numb. My heart was beating through my ears. I had to remind myself to breathe and that no matter what I'd be OK. As soon as I heard the tone of her voice, I knew. Beta levels dropped to 400 something. The doctor will call this afternoon. Come back in on Friday. Continue your meds. I'm so sorry.
I called E, told him the news. His reaction, "Well that's what we thought" -was not what I wanted to hear and I hung up on him. I turned my phone on silent. When E emailed, I told him what the nurse had said and that I couldn't talk to the doc today but if he wanted to, he could.
I have no idea how I will make it through work today. I wish I could say that I'm numb, but I'm not. I feel each fiber of my head, my heart, my muscles, my joints, my fingers and my toes and they all hurt like hell.
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