Yes, spotting. I woke up this morning and went to the bathroom only to find a teeny twinge of pink on the TP. FREAK OUT! I wiped again, small amount of pink. I inserted my endometrin insert - again teeny bit of brownish pink on the applicator. My heart sank. I literally almost collapsed on the floor. This was the beginning of the end the last time around.
I had another teeny spot of pink later that morning when I used the restroom at work about 9:30 am but so far nothing more thank God. I have no cramping which is a good sign. Last time my spotting and eventual bleeding was accompanied by mild cramps at first followed my more severe cramps.
I have to keep reminding myself that this cycle is NOT like last cycle. We have a heartbeat for goodness sake. Much, much different than a falling first beta. Needless to say I spent the entire day a nervous wreck. I couldn't eat much at all because my stomach was in knots. E kept trying to reassure me, but it's tough when all you've come to expect is loss.
Tonight I feel fine, except for the nerves. I feel totally symptom free which is annoying. Five more days till our next ultrasound. This wait is so awful. I feel as if May was the longest month on the planet...and June just might be that way as well. I have no way of knowing what's going on in there and I'm just trying to take it one day at a time - or even 1 hour at a time like I did today.
Needs some prayers for an uneventful weekend.
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