Did I kill my embryo? I can't get this out of my head. When a frozen transfer doesn't work after a successful IVF, you've got to wonder. Was it me or was it the embryo? And I can't help but think it was me. It was a "perfect" blast. And now I'm thinking I should have insisted on the steroids the first time around with the FET rather than wait for a failure.
The good news is that my RE has agreed to the prednisone this next time around. I was on them for my successful IVF so it's got be wondering if our decision to forgo the steroids cost us a baby. It's heartbreaking to think this way.
And what if that was our only good remaining embryo?!?! I've just killed it. I also asked about endometium scratching which may improve implantation, but RE won't agree to do it until I've had another FET failure - fun, right? I've had 4 transfers of 1 "perfect" blast each time and only one successful pregnancy so do I think there's an implantation issue going on too, you bet!
Hind site is 20/20 but these are the thoughts that crowd my mind these days. What could I have done better, more, less of? Or, perhaps I should know better - I have no control over this process whatsoever.