As I was thinking about a title for this post I kept coming back to those tried and true analogies we use with infertility like roller coaster, merry-go-round, Tower of Terror. OK so maybe not that last one but seriously sometimes if feels that way right. Well crap, the thing about amusement parks is that they're FUN. I mean people go there to have a good time and 9 times out of 10 - they are. You're dealing with a wait-in-line-for-the-front-row roller coaster enthusiast here. Let me tell you, this is one coaster that I can't wait to finally get off.
Our consult with the RE last week went well. We're going to aim for a fresh transfer instead of a frozen cycle. YAY! We may or may not incorporate PGS testing depending on how many embryos we have but we've been refereed to another company our clinic works with who can turn the results around in time for a fresh day 6 transfer. RE said he would allow a fresh day 5 transfer and then we could test any others, but he wasn't so keen on the idea. He felt like if we're going to test, we should test them all.
I've done spreadsheet after spreadsheet on this and it's going to come down to gut feeling in the end and embryo count/quality so we've put off the decision until we get the fertilization reports and day 3 information. Only thing is, the PGS clinic requires payment ahead of time which I HATE. All the paperwork says we can cancel for any reason and get a full refund but I just don't trust them with my money. I know they do this so that they can get the results in and back to us without any financial issues looking but still. This second PGS clinic is of course more expensive!
Part of me feels like it's worth it in order to know if it's just that we make crappy embryos or if my uterus is rejecting normal ones. There's certainly value in knowing that. Also, we could cut down on the number of eSETs we try next time...the number of IM shots, the trips to the clinic and the days off work if we necessarily cut out the abnormal embryos. But of course - what if the tests are wrong - and a normal embryo gets ruled out. We'll never know. We're injecting SO MUCH SCIENCE into this in the first place what's a little more, right? UGH. So there we stand, in no man's land right now with the PGS testing.
Off for a vacation tomorrow and hoping the fam can keep it together. We've decided to take in a real live amusement park while we're at it and I'd be lying if I told you I wasn't thrilled to death to be taking C to meet Mickey and Minnie for the first time. If he doesn't cry - he'll flip! My niece on the other hand who is 2.5 is sure to flip. Seeing the joy on her face is going to be incredible.
Lupron injections start on July 3rd - my own version of fireworks. These ones sting don't they?