My New Niece is Here

I stopped crying yesterday long enough to get the news that the little one had arrived safe and sound. Still no word on her name yet - my sis and brother-in-law are still trying to decide between 3 names and 2 middle names. This kid better have a name before they leave the hospital!  The baby is adorable and I've already gotten word my mom and sis thinks she looks like me.  I'm very flattered.

This whole experience is very bittersweet as I'm sure many of you have experienced.

As for me... I have updates on immune issues and next cycle plans which I'm working on posting. But the short of it is RE #4 doesn't really think I have immune issues, I still haven't gotten my period, we aren't going to do the endometrial biopsy and I'm already on BCPs for an April IVF.  Phew - that was a lot but I'll post more later.   

She's in Labor...and I Can't Stop Crying

My younger sister went into labor this morning pretty early so by the end of the day we may have a baby.  She was due this coming Friday but a few days early is still pretty close.  I am praying that everything goes smoothly and I think I'm in need of some prayers myself.  Every time I stop to think about my new niece, I break down in tears. Dear God, please help me get through today.

AF is a No Show

Here we are on CD 40 and still no flow.  I had to call RE #4's office to check on the immune system testing bills that I've been charged so I brought up my current AF dilemma. They want me to come in for BW and US tomorrow morning. I was going to go to my previous clinic, but the new doc will want to see the results anyway. I just figured it's probably easier to go to the new place even though I'm comfortable with the old. Ahhh - so many docs. 

Also, as soon as my nurse heard it was me on the phone, she was like, "Oh, good. I've been meaning to call you. Dr. RE #4 has reviewed your blood work results on the immune testing and wants you to come in for a consult!"  I was not expecting that at all. I'm glad the results are in, but when we first spoke, RE #4 said she'd just call if she got the results in.  So now that she wants us to come in, I'm prepared for the worst - even though I have no idea what the "worst" looks like. I was able to get in for the consult on Friday so I'm hoping to have some answers then.  Will let you know everything I find out. 

Oh and the kicker - the nurse actually suggested we might be pregnant right now. I explained that we have had intercourse about 3 times in the last 40 days and every time we've used a condom per instructions from the doc.  She said she's seen stranger things happen.... I'm pissed she got my hopes up.

CD 38

This is a long and never ending cycle.  I know many of you have dealt with cycles much longer than this. I honestly don't know how you do it.  This is incredible unusual for me - I've never gone more that 35 days, but then again I've never had a chemical pregnancy before either. I'm annoyed that this cycle is dragging out because then that delays my biopsy, which delays the results, which delays our plans!  UGH so frustrated.

I called RE#3's office today and they said if I don't get my period by Wednesday that I should call and come in for blood work and an US on Thursday morning.  They are going to check to see where I am in my cycle and they might give me Provera. Never had it so I have no idea what to expect. I've never missed a period since I started getting them.  Anyway, if they decide I need Provera, I'll have to call RE #4 (the one who'd doing my immune testing) to make sure taking the Provera won't screw anything else up. 

My parents are visiting this weekend and it made me sad to think that if we were still pregnant, this would be the weekend we'd tell them the news.  I can't believe how much this stuff sucks sometimes.

March Madness

Coming to you live from my living room where I have spent so much of this late winter - soon-to-be spring, huddled on the couch yelling my brains out.  I am a HUGE college basketball fan. My alma mater is (read = was) a big force in the Big East Conference. I thoroughly enjoy a good game and plan to spend the rest of March and early April drinking beer and continuing to yell at the television.

It hit me today, I feel as if I'm living my very own March Madness....I hate waiting. I wish I was doing IVF right now but instead I'm awaiting the results of my very expensive (more on that later) immune testing results and my period (still not here, WTF) so I can schedule my endometrial biopsy.  It's maddening- this process, the waiting, the bills, the roller coaster.

Waiting for AF

I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of AF so I can schedule my endometrial biopsy - step 2 in the immune workup.  Today is CD 33.  My longest cycle has been 34 days so if I don't get my period by the weekend, something is up.  I have never skipped a period but then again, I've never been pregnant before so I am not sure what my body is doing.  I will be really pissed if my body tries to drag this process out even longer than I had thought. 

Also, E and I did end up getting an invite to my pregnant, engaged friend's wedding in May.  E doesn't want to go (he's already on the hook for 2 other weddings this year and just can't take time off from work), but my mom and dad will be there so I might just go alone. I don't think I'll bend over backwards to try to attend this out-of-state affair, but if I can make it, and flights aren't terrible, I'll suck it up and go. There will be champagne I'm sure so that's a plus. 

Today's Bloodwork

Mark my words, I will never ever ever again complain about getting blood draws for fertility or other purposes. Piece of cake compared to the horrible experience I had this morning giving my blood for the immune work-up. 

First of all...this quick little in and out appointment that the nurse said we'd encounter - not so quick.  But she hands me my vials so I can go get my blood drawn on the bottom floor and there were 18 vials. Yes, 18 vials folks! I counted. E had 4.  I had about 6 that were jumbo, 6 that were regular size and 6 that were small.

So she starts drawing blood from my right arm. Quick prick and we're pumping - no problem. About 4 jumbo vials in and 3 whole mins of blood flow...my arms starts to tingle and I am getting a little warm. The nurse says that because there's so many vials, they will likely have to use both arms because my blood will start to clot. Sure enough, 4 vials later - blood stops coming. 

At this point, I think I'm going to faint.  I've never fainted before but the warm, nauseous, sweaty, tingly feeling I had was spot on I'm told. She pricked me again on the left arm....I managed to make it through the rest but I thought I was going to vomit all over the white floor. 

I am a blood-giving champion today and I so hope this testing allows us to make a better decision with treatment moving forward.